Hi Everybody! Between my body massage work over at Soma in South Portland and the excitement (and let's be honest, stress) of growing and developing my massage and polarity therapy practice, I've been pretty busy these last few months. So, I scheduled myself this winter for the ten day silent retreat at the Vipassana Meditation Center in Shelburne Falls, Massachusetts.
I've done it before, and it wasn't easy- and although I've certainly come a long way in my personal spiritual development, and in my meditation practices, I'm still coming into this retreat knowing that silence is a huge challenge for someone with such a busy mind... I think I'm prepared- I've packed all my stuff and I'm ready to head off even as we speak. But, mentally, this degree of meditation presents an unique challenge. It forces one to deal with oneself- to listen to the thoughts and feelings that silence and solitude dredges up like so much emotional muck. Even thinking about it is a tricky little mental exercise- think about how many words you say in a day- what does it mean to be able to talk? Are you a nervous talker, or do you stay quiet when you should be speaking your mind? By forcing the self into silence, one learns to address these questions, and learns the value and the weight of the spoken word...Or at least, I hope that's what happens. Maybe I'll just go insane?
Anyway, off I go- off the grid completely- no cell phone, no internet, not even yoga. Just silence and meditation for ten days.
Wish me luck, and let's hope I have some insights to share with you all when I get back!